about decisions

May 24, 2012

Miscellaneous

this morning i sat on our couch, in front of the t.v. (of course), watching whatever seemed to be on which was nothing, at least worth mentioning. kramer was curled up next to me with his head rested on my lap and camden had just left for another day of work. a commercial came on and honestly i can’t remember what it was advertising for (that’s my memory skills for ya) but it showed a pregnant soon to be mom. i caught myself thinking that would be nice. this thought caught me off guard, ‘that would be nice?’. i will admit from time to time i have thought it would be nice to sometime have children, i just have never put a meaning to what sometime actually meant. i started to think, when exactly was sometime? could it be soon? honestly, i don’t know.
i don’t know how one knows they are ready to become a mom, i mean truly ready. when i think baby, i think: cute and fun and precious and of course a lot of hard work/dedication, but i don’t think you can truly know exactly what it entails until you can really experience it for yourself. how could i know if i could handle it, if my body would cope well with it, if we would be happy, all of us?
i don’t have all the answers to these questions and i don’t think i am supposed to. all i know is that i am ready to at least think about a baby and start making decisions that would eventually get our family to that point. the point where we could soon welcome one more member into our little family of three (camden, kramer, and me). the time has come where  we need to start making decisions. 

GOING SOMEWHERE & GETTING NOWHERE ::THOUGHT ON TUESDAY::

May 22, 2012

Miscellaneous

shirt: anthropologie, skirt: target, shoes: chinese laundry, belt: target, bracelet: j.crew
the other day, we decided we wanted to take a ride up the canyon for some brunch. before we started to get ready i looked over at kramer laying there with us on the bed and realized i had forgotten to make a grooming appointment for the little guy. this was the longest, fluffiest kramer we had ever seen and with the weather warming up so much i knew he would be happier without so much hair, even though the process of getting him to that point would probably be his definition of hell. we made a quick phone call and found out they were all booked up for the day but they would call us if they had any cancelations. fifteen minutes later the phone rang and they said if we brought him in right away then they would be able to cut his hair after all. so camden took the fluffy krames down to the groomers while i stayed home to get dressed for brunch. 
when camden got back, it was getting close to 11:30 and my stomach was telling me we better get going. before we set off on the the motorcycle, camden realized he should check the air pressure in the tires (for about the 30th time this week). i waited for him to get back and when he did i thought we would finally be off to our brunch destination. once on the bike, camden notified me that we better stop for gas and promised it would be really quick. i started to think ‘oh man! we are never going to get there’ (f.y.i. the more times you think this, the more likely it becomes true i have decided). after we filled up and were back on the road i felt this was it, we would finally make it to brunch to settle our rumbling tummies. on the on-ramp to the freeway, while waiting at a light, camden turned to me and said “does the bike feel weird to you?” i said no, though i hadn’t really been paying much attention to “how the bike felt”. as the light turned green and we started to go i realized ok, yeah the bike feels weird, kind of like we are about to crash! camden pulled off to the side of the freeway to have a look at it and see if anything seemed strange or off with the structure. as far as he could tell everything looked fine so we decided to give it one more go. the moment we started to move i got this sudden flow of panic crash through my body like a wave breaks at the shore. it suddenly felt as if the back wheel was somehow going to roll off. camden pulled off to the side of the road once again as i grabbed his waist with my eyes clenched tight (it would have made more sense to keep them open now that i think about it). we hurried and got off the bike to have another look. sure enough, all the bolts holding the back wheel on were so loose you could tighten them with your fingers. camden grabbed his handy dandy tools out of the back of the bike and got to work fixing the bolts all tight. we decided we better head home and take a car just to be safe. by the time we were home it was almost one o’clock and we were both overwhelmed with hunger and tiredness. it felt like we had put so much effort trying to get to one place only to end up back at home hours later. 
at 1:45 p.m. we finally got to what was more like lunch instead of brunch and i have to say it’s amazing what a little food can do for one’s attitude. we started to talk about how lucky we were that the wheel hadn’t actually come off and that our lunch was able to happen outside, underneath a little umbrella instead of in a hospital bed. the rest of our day went quite well and we were both happy as we both felt a bit grateful our day had taken the path it did instead of a much more dreadful and painful one.

108 MILES

May 21, 2012

Miscellaneous

saturday, camden rode in his 5th century (a hundred miles). we had to wake up really early to drive to the starting line. i kept joking with him before hand saying “what’s another 30 miles, you could just bike there couldn’t you?”, obviously i was kidding but we were all tired, even krames.
it seriously always boggles my mind that someone could go 100 miles on their bike without falling over dead at some point. i can barely go ten miles on my cruiser before my legs start to feel like jell-o and i seriously can’t even walk up the stairs. camden does it with such ease and even enjoys it, he is crazy amazing i think. 
it has been a tradition every year a century roles around, kramer and i will drive down with him to see him off, then about five hours later come back and watch for him to cross the finish line. when it starts to get close to the time camden should be arriving back, i always tell kramer “camden is coming kramer. do you see him?” kramer always starts to look around trying to see camden riding down the road. it’s always kind of fun watching all the bikers crossing the finish line having just finished that treacherous 100 miles. oh excuse me, camden just reminded me it was 108 miles, not 100.

5 hours and 23 minutes after he began, camden came into view finishing his 108th mile. we were so excited to see him, so proud of what he once again accomplished. he was so happy he finished, relieved and proud he had done it start to finish with no problems. kramer was so excited to see him pulling as hard as he could to try and get to him quicker (the leash concept has never made much sense to him). i am always slightly relieved to see that camden has made it back safe and alive and no emergency calls had to be made. 

good job camden, we love you!

summer should be like:

May 18, 2012

Miscellaneous

what summer should be like :: 123456789101112
i am not the biggest fan of summer, personally i think it is too hot, but with the right accessories and things to do i guess it can be a bit of fun. 
biking and rollerblading are my personal favorite activities in the hot months especially in the evening when it has cooled down. we attached a little basket to the back of my cruiser so we can bring kramer along for our little rides, he absolutely loves it. 
camden loves hiking, while i am not the biggest fan of it, i have learned to like doing it with him especially when we bring a picnic for the top. actually, our first date was a hike with a picnic at the top but we will save that story for another day.
kramer is so funny when it is hot outside. on our walks, he will find little puddles of water and wet grass and lay down in them like a little fish when he feels too hot. we have tried to teach him swimming 101 but he does not like being forced to get in the water. he would rather do it on his own terms. 
i know all of these things aren’t necessarily just for summer but i have to say they would all make it way more fun. 
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