this morning i sat on our couch, in front of the t.v. (of course), watching whatever seemed to be on which was nothing, at least worth mentioning. kramer was curled up next to me with his head rested on my lap and camden had just left for another day of work. a commercial came on and honestly i can’t remember what it was advertising for (that’s my memory skills for ya) but it showed a pregnant soon to be mom. i caught myself thinking that would be nice. this thought caught me off guard, ‘that would be nice?’. i will admit from time to time i have thought it would be nice to sometime have children, i just have never put a meaning to what sometime actually meant. i started to think, when exactly was sometime? could it be soon? honestly, i don’t know.
i don’t know how one knows they are ready to become a mom, i mean truly ready. when i think baby, i think: cute and fun and precious and of course a lot of hard work/dedication, but i don’t think you can truly know exactly what it entails until you can really experience it for yourself. how could i know if i could handle it, if my body would cope well with it, if we would be happy, all of us?
i don’t have all the answers to these questions and i don’t think i am supposed to. all i know is that i am ready to at least think about a baby and start making decisions that would eventually get our family to that point. the point where we could soon welcome one more member into our little family of three (camden, kramer, and me). the time has come where i we need to start making decisions.




























